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Life as I know It

I understand you guys and I appreciate the things you guys do for me but I don’t like the way each of you act. You being a drunk just adds to my difficult life and then I have the greedy guy who couldn’t give two shits about me. Friends used to get me by but I don’t really have those anymore. I may have it better than some people but I was left with an emotional personality that will never get me through this life no matter how good days can get, the bad days seem to last forever. Summer needs to come and bring me some good times

Sincerel¥ the girl in the fog

March 20, 2013

For the Better

Posted by photogrrrapher

I love you but I deserve better. I let you go to see my options and what I really deserve. I stayed and tried for you, but there must be effort from both sides. You have the emotion and feelings, with nothing to go with it. Instead of living in depression, I want to start living in life. A light can only be contained for so long until it wants to reach air and breathe.

February 10, 2013

The Man in Disguise who’s possibly the right guy?

Posted by photogrrrapher | Filed under disguise,

There’s a man with a heart no one could see

I saw a light and thought “this couldn’t be”

Through the halls of prom, I took my first glance

I never thought he would give me a chance

I started to fall for his warm brown eyes

I soon then began to hear of his lies

I didn’t want to believe what I heard

Now everything that was, seemed so absurd

He apologized and gave me his word

Suddenly everything in my life blurred

I granted the guilty with all my love

But deep inside I felt only the huge shove

I then saw deeper than his heartless coal

All along I could see right through his soul

November 26, 2012

Pain

Posted by photogrrrapher

How can your heart physically heart from the sadness that you feel?

November 20, 2012

People Change

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It’s funny how people change in a blink of an eye, or what seems like a short amount of time. You meet people and automatically judge them by their cover or how they are acting. Everybody does it but some people give them the chance or have the knowledge that they are not what they seem. For example someone will say “that person is so mean” but they’ll respond to their judgment with “she probably had a bad day or just had a bad breakup”.The people I once hung out with, were in disguise. They were the true evil ones. The ones with the evil intentions turned out to be the ones with the biggest heart with a story. I’m learning everyday, learning to trust or to look out. I just want to have fun and have the life I’ve always wanted. I can’t let people get in the way but if people want to tag along, you have to be real and drama free. I’m not in the mood for arguments or games, I want to live a stress free life and see more of it! I love my boyfriend, family(I don’t know about dad lol), and friends…only things left to do is have fun and find a career. I’m depressed but make the best out of it. Just need those ones close never to leave my side.

September 16, 2012

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